First time

I have had many things stolen from me.
From the simplest things.
When I was 5 my first play station.
7, my first kiss.
And when I was 14, my first time.
Most people imagine their first time
as this beautiful moment,
Candles on the side of the bed.
Marvin Gaye playing in the background.
And this perfect collision of bodies.
Like during a sunset,
The way purple and pink clash so beautifully.
And that absolute moment of pleasure.
But instead of screaming his name,

I was screaming for help.